im afraid to die

got me

say hi to the end

it was nice while it lasted
maybe we'll bump into each other
on the streets of bangkok or paris
a few years from now

i hope you remember me as a good person.

say hi to in a state of decay

I've fallen prey to the glitz and glamour of consumerism

I've fallen inlove with the dirty and grimey ways of materialism

I've fallen ill to the grandoise obsession of things that perish and feelings that change.

But most of all I've fallen from grace with my nonexistent self-esteem and self-worth.

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say hi to i want too many things and they're all cameras!

im feeling film sick
as in i miss shooting with film 
i still have rolls of undeveloped film
somewhere in the dark recesses of my room
all i want for christmas is a camera 
and a dose of serotonin & dopamine wouldn't hurt
and yes, i already stopped taking adderall 
moving on!

Superheadz The Last Camera


 it's relatively cheap at only 2,600 pesos and i'm still convincing myself 
if its really worth it, you know? you can find out more about it here

sample photos:

Digital Harinezumi

I'm really inlove with this one! It's digital but it captures photos and videos
just like an 8mm film. It has monochrome, lo-fi and other unpredictable image results.

here's a video example from steve weiss  it looks so dreamy and my hands
are actually itching to get my hands on it but it comes with a not so easy price.

yeap, it's worth a whooping 6,000 pesos. I'm up for it but i need a little convincing 
and so far, im a little convinced from watching a lot of reviews from other people 
but the price...

i bet you can see me crying in the corner now.

hope i can actually buy these. my original plan was to buy a real vintage camera
like a rangefinder or an slr and im still researching on it.

 time will tell!

say hi to status!

have i told you that i love status ph?? 
because i do! i love the editorial section

this is the march issue. haven't bought the december issue yet
because im too busy with exams and not having a life

say hi to rooftop soignée

i slept on the rooftop yesterday
felt the cold wind and watched 
the people from below moving forward
with their lives as i suspended mine
in that high place void of people

the birds were circling around themselves
as the clouds moved to the direction of the wind
i closed my eyes and felt an overwhelming 
sense of peace from complete silence

 i listened to the nightingale 
and looked at the clouds
time seemed to stop,
suspended in that little rooftop

i roamed around the empty rooms
 and danced around like tilda swinton
to trapped by this thing called love
spun around, twirled and laughed

i've never felt so carefree and happy
than in that moment
it was like a breath of fresh air
and the space that i needed
to get away from all the busy people

it was beautiful